1 million for one.

My wife sets me free. She says I may do what ever I want with any woman.

So I may have chance for millions of women by loosing only one.

But what about the fundamental question?  Quantity or quality?

Any of millions can not make me forget my beloved wife.

She does not know you can not replace a 1 ton rock with 1000 tons of sand.

Unexpected test to compare.

An old friend visited just before the new year. She decided to spend her Christmas holiday in Istanbul. Natalya is a 40 y.o. Russian brunette from Stavropol. With very beautiful long black hair and impressive real blue eyes. She is a woman every man would like and want. I know her from 2005. We got acquainted in internet and attempted to try for a love affair. She came to Istanbul for a few days and we met in real life but then it did not work and we broke up. I had not kept in contact with her since then and I did not store her contact information. But she did not delete my mobile number and e mail address and called me 2 months ago to inform she would visit Istanbul and asked for help for shopping. She came with a friend named Inna. She is also very beautiful, green eyed blonde. NAtalya is a lawyer and Inna is a dentist. I spent whole day with these 2 very beautiful ladies in shopping malls. It was proudy in public but beautiness is not everything.

They both have boy friends but left the men in Russia and came to Istanbul to spend Christmas holiday and to enter the new year. It s very normal and usual in Russia and probably they did not make anything with any man here. So I dont think they cheated their men but it is still strange and wrong for me. They should considered and hoped to spend good time, to enter a new year happier without the lovers to come here. It seems to me strange and wrong because I consider to be with your beloved is better than any other conditions one would preffer to be together with the BELOVED in any conditions with every possibility. Or perhaps they dont love their men but in these case why and what for they are together with those men in a love affair without love? And the men should be glad to O.K. this plan. I think Russian men dont value their women so much and the women think it is freedom and independence. The ladies have been used to this system and glad with it. Foreign men appeal them as different type men not ignoring them but attending as something new and unusual but then it seems difficult and boring to be fixed to a person with strong ties in a deep and passionate real relation and to share a common destiny with.

Willy nilly I compared them with my wonderful beloved. And I confirmed my rightfulness to love my wife still. Not only about this issue but I observed all their speaking, behaviours, and reactions in general. I observed their style and compared with my wife as overall.

Once more I realised there is no counterpart to my wife and she is unique and almost perfect.

Happy birthday.

My beloved you have become 35 today.

So yo are at the half on the way. The time one must think twice before an act. But I trust you, you are so good, clever and you have a very good character. You will probably continue to do the correct always.

I have given up to try to prove I was right, to try to overcome of your claims and negative opinions about me. Now I enjoy the pleasant of communicating with you though in very limited time and form when I can and I enjoy the pleasant of watching you from a distance. I dont struggle for anything but just appraciate you, observe you and love you like you are a masterpiece artcraft.

You gave me enough chance, I played and lost. And I can not complain now.

You were right almost everything.

After now I do the only possible and correct thing. I love you silently and secretly.

Once more I wish the best for you my Cheburashka.