I understand your sarcasm...
If you want sex with me, you waste time in vain...
I differ from those women about whom you think...
If you want sex with me, you waste time in vain...
I differ from those women about whom you think...
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Why did you think so, how did you have such an idea Oksana.
Apparently it is better me to clarify the issue about us. As you know we got acquainted in a dating web site. In those days I thought my beloved had a love affair with Jason and foolishly I consider I had to responce by starting with a new love affair. I was searching a woman and you were good and convenient for me. You are beautiful, attractive and sexy. I dreamt love and sex with you. And I did not hide it from you. I told I wanted you included for sex. But you were not complaining of this then. You responded by your photos in bikini. In those days I had attempts for a love affair also with somebody else and I made sex with several women. But in a few months I just realised that an affair or sex with somebody never satisfy me, makes me happy but rather makes me feel bad only. I saw this is not I have wanted and needed. I understood I want everything only with my beloved even though she refuses me now. I have decided it is better not to live anything at all since I can not do with her. I declared it to you and suggested that I did want a love affair with you and even I did not want to continue to contact. On the other hand you have been a good and loyal friend. After some months you got contact with me again and we have continued to communicate in a form of friendship since then. Oksana have I ever offer or mention anything about sex since then. Even one time did I suggest anything about love or sex. NO. I have paid 3 visits to Vladimir since we got re contact. The last was in last month. I did not call you, I did not try to meet. You talk about men to me. You have had contacts and attempts with 3 men in order but how was my reaction. I can listen calm and enjoy to discuss. Whereas I would almost die with suffer of heart problems for upset and jealousy about her affair with an other man though she is not my wife no more. What you lived with that Grek man and what you may live with this recent one does not interest me. I just want, plan and aim to continue to dream, to imagine of my beloved even in her absence. Is it craziness. Yes it is. Who cares. I need only her and I have her in my soul and heart as I keep her alive in me forever.
You are certainly a beautiful and attractive woman. I certainly would want to make sex with you under normal conditions. But now, relax and calm down please. I have neither wish nor aim to do it with anybody. I will not attempt. If there will be a miracle one day, if I will cease to love my ex wife one day, you will be in prior among ladies. You will be informed if it will happen. You know I am not shy.
Oksana what is wrong with sex for you. Why it is prohibited to you. Why do you afraid of if a man may demand it. I remember you told me you had not do it for years. You went to Greece to meet with your lover but you say with a condition not to make sex. Probably only because of this you got a negative responce and approach from him. I guessed it was only sex he wanted. And without it, you were not needed for him. But why do you prohibit it to yourself. Were you raped in past remained a fear to you. Dont you trust yourself at sex. Do you believe you are so bad at sex. Or versay vercy you are a sex addict considering you can not stay without it even one day if you start it again like treated drug abusers.
Anyway I wish for you good in the future.
Poka.
You answered all your questions. I want to keep my sexual energy for my favourite person. For this reason I stopped any communication with men. Also it is the main reason why I don't want to send my photos of to nobody. Besides all men lie. They think out the different reasons to drag me in a bed. I don't trust men. And I don't trust you because you are a man.
Quite recently I understood what is necessary to me the man. And I will wait for such man. I believe that he will find me. And I will protect and increase my sexual energy for my man now. I understood that I quickly lose her...
Oksana I realised how much we are similar with you.
To have such a strong, stubborn, stable, deep and courageous soul. As a consequence of to be Taurus.
You say you will preserve, protect and keep yourself to an ideal man. The man matches your requirements and expectations perfectly. You will wait your favorite. You say you are sure he will find you. But how. And I say I just will continue to dream of my ex wife desperately. It will be all my love life. I dont want a real affair with somebody but I will settle for only with memories and dreams. Both are utopias. We prefer to live non existing loves with dream heroes. We are like small kids believe fairy tale heroes.
Let me say you honestly, frankly in a realistic way. We are both in our last times. Nowadays are our last chances. We will waste our days, months, years in a stupid wait and then when we will realise it will have been a big mistake, nobody will want and prefer us. It will be too late even for accepting those we refuse today. We will have wasted our last chaces for a happy family.
Is it an indicator of to be fool. No. It would be, if I could not see and forecast and predict all of this. But I know they will happen. It means I am clever enough. It is just inevitable destiny as I have nothing to do about it. I can not be happy with any other woman and this is why I can not try to start with any woman when I know she is not what I want.
What a strong evidence for to be similar as zodiac signs in common. Look at us, 45 years old children, dreaming fool children trashing the expensive rest of lives.
Only that for sure we behave not selfish and pragmatic, but noble, loyal and decent as to be old fashioned today.
Yeah, maybe you're right.
But I have a different view on these things. First of all, I love my solitude. My narcotic - it is solitude. I'm used to it, I was alone for too long. Loneliness - my vacation, my comfort. I do not suffer from this. And any relationship - is the work for me.
Secondly, I do not expect ideal man. I need a man who can accept me with my shortcomings. I have at times is a difficult character. I get moody, and I am a despot ... And I need a man, shortcomings which I can take as well.
Third, we both know that there is fate. When I swim against the current of the river, I realize that I'm doing it for nothing. I'm tired of swimming against the tide, and I tired of fighting. I choose peace of mind now, and I trust my stream of life.
Why did you think so, how did you have such an idea Oksana.
Apparently it is better me to clarify the issue about us. As you know we got acquainted in a dating web site. In those days I thought my beloved had a love affair with Jason and foolishly I consider I had to responce by starting with a new love affair. I was searching a woman and you were good and convenient for me. You are beautiful, attractive and sexy. I dreamt love and sex with you. And I did not hide it from you. I told I wanted you included for sex. But you were not complaining of this then. You responded by your photos in bikini. In those days I had attempts for a love affair also with somebody else and I made sex with several women. But in a few months I just realised that an affair or sex with somebody never satisfy me, makes me happy but rather makes me feel bad only. I saw this is not I have wanted and needed. I understood I want everything only with my beloved even though she refuses me now. I have decided it is better not to live anything at all since I can not do with her. I declared it to you and suggested that I did want a love affair with you and even I did not want to continue to contact. On the other hand you have been a good and loyal friend. After some months you got contact with me again and we have continued to communicate in a form of friendship since then. Oksana have I ever offer or mention anything about sex since then. Even one time did I suggest anything about love or sex. NO. I have paid 3 visits to Vladimir since we got re contact. The last was in last month. I did not call you, I did not try to meet. You talk about men to me. You have had contacts and attempts with 3 men in order but how was my reaction. I can listen calm and enjoy to discuss. Whereas I would almost die with suffer of heart problems for upset and jealousy about her affair with an other man though she is not my wife no more. What you lived with that Grek man and what you may live with this recent one does not interest me. I just want, plan and aim to continue to dream, to imagine of my beloved even in her absence. Is it craziness. Yes it is. Who cares. I need only her and I have her in my soul and heart as I keep her alive in me forever.
You are certainly a beautiful and attractive woman. I certainly would want to make sex with you under normal conditions. But now, relax and calm down please. I have neither wish nor aim to do it with anybody. I will not attempt. If there will be a miracle one day, if I will cease to love my ex wife one day, you will be in prior among ladies. You will be informed if it will happen. You know I am not shy.
Oksana what is wrong with sex for you. Why it is prohibited to you. Why do you afraid of if a man may demand it. I remember you told me you had not do it for years. You went to Greece to meet with your lover but you say with a condition not to make sex. Probably only because of this you got a negative responce and approach from him. I guessed it was only sex he wanted. And without it, you were not needed for him. But why do you prohibit it to yourself. Were you raped in past remained a fear to you. Dont you trust yourself at sex. Do you believe you are so bad at sex. Or versay vercy you are a sex addict considering you can not stay without it even one day if you start it again like treated drug abusers.
Anyway I wish for you good in the future.
Poka.
You answered all your questions. I want to keep my sexual energy for my favourite person. For this reason I stopped any communication with men. Also it is the main reason why I don't want to send my photos of to nobody. Besides all men lie. They think out the different reasons to drag me in a bed. I don't trust men. And I don't trust you because you are a man.
Quite recently I understood what is necessary to me the man. And I will wait for such man. I believe that he will find me. And I will protect and increase my sexual energy for my man now. I understood that I quickly lose her...
Оксана
Oksana I realised how much we are similar with you.
To have such a strong, stubborn, stable, deep and courageous soul. As a consequence of to be Taurus.
You say you will preserve, protect and keep yourself to an ideal man. The man matches your requirements and expectations perfectly. You will wait your favorite. You say you are sure he will find you. But how. And I say I just will continue to dream of my ex wife desperately. It will be all my love life. I dont want a real affair with somebody but I will settle for only with memories and dreams. Both are utopias. We prefer to live non existing loves with dream heroes. We are like small kids believe fairy tale heroes.
Let me say you honestly, frankly in a realistic way. We are both in our last times. Nowadays are our last chances. We will waste our days, months, years in a stupid wait and then when we will realise it will have been a big mistake, nobody will want and prefer us. It will be too late even for accepting those we refuse today. We will have wasted our last chaces for a happy family.
Is it an indicator of to be fool. No. It would be, if I could not see and forecast and predict all of this. But I know they will happen. It means I am clever enough. It is just inevitable destiny as I have nothing to do about it. I can not be happy with any other woman and this is why I can not try to start with any woman when I know she is not what I want.
What a strong evidence for to be similar as zodiac signs in common. Look at us, 45 years old children, dreaming fool children trashing the expensive rest of lives.
Only that for sure we behave not selfish and pragmatic, but noble, loyal and decent as to be old fashioned today.
Yeah, maybe you're right.
But I have a different view on these things. First of all, I love my solitude. My narcotic - it is solitude. I'm used to it, I was alone for too long. Loneliness - my vacation, my comfort. I do not suffer from this. And any relationship - is the work for me.
Secondly, I do not expect ideal man. I need a man who can accept me with my shortcomings. I have at times is a difficult character. I get moody, and I am a despot ... And I need a man, shortcomings which I can take as well.
Third, we both know that there is fate. When I swim against the current of the river, I realize that I'm doing it for nothing. I'm tired of swimming against the tide, and I tired of fighting. I choose peace of mind now, and I trust my stream of life.
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