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I was married with a Russian woman. The person I had loved most in my life. I loved her very much. We have had a daughter in 2009. My wonderful daughter was born. But I had been able to be with her only till her 1,5 age.

I just had problems with my stepdaughter who she was 9 when I got marry with my ex wife. My step daughter has a difficult character as well as me and it started challenges, problems and conflicts soon. She had been without father and with his very few love and attention since her 4 years old. She is a leo as zodiac sign and requires a kingdom to decree and she had always had such conditions as her mom feels responsibility in her bad fate. But I could not accept to be managed by a 9 years old girl. And I was not mature and experienced enough at parenting to manage the circumstance. An endless struggle and competition started and it leaded problems with my wife. I commented her acts as violations of my rights and tried not to give permission. Now I feel regret for some of my acts very much. Moreover I realise that in some cases I was not right and I did injustices to my step daughter as she did minor mistakes which any girl in her age could do. Poor my wife had to pay the price and took the consequences once more by destroying her life and marriage. She is so unlucky as not to have a good life and destiny till now though she deserves.

So my wife left me and turned back to Russia with the kids in 2011. After 3 years of separation we divorced with her in August 2014. And she declared she found a new lover, an Englishman from London and she got marry with him in February 2016. She says she will bring the kids to England including my daughter. Poor my daughter she has two citizenships to Russia and Turkey. She can not live in one of these her own countries but she has to be as a migrant in England instead. And the worst is that she will has spent almost all her life without her father since her 1,5.

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2/17/13

Forgive me.

Poor my wonderfull daughter. You are unlucky as much as me. You are unlucky to be my daughter. I had to wait for years by dreaming a happy family. When I got merry with your mom and then when you were born, I thought it was the prize of my patience. You are a perfect dauhgter and I love you very much.

But unfortunatelly I had a great role in your bad fate inadvertently. I was one of main factors caused you to face with such a terrible situation. Lack of father especially when you need most as so small 3,5 years old.

My lovely, I appologize you millions of times for this.

You are a wonderfull girl for any father to love but I have one more reason to love you. You are the only thing left to me belongs to your mom. The last peice of her has remained to me.

Forgive me my sweet lovely daughter, I can not be with you, protect you, help you when you need. Your mom lost her love to me, started to hate me just because of she felt I was not glad with her daughter's caprices. I never beat her even one time, even did not berate. But it was enough for your mom to cease to love me just because she felt I did not like her daughter's behaivours. Your mom berated her when it s necessary but she prohibited me. She requested me to love her daughter, to smile, to pamper in any case. she did not love me last year of our marriage before she left me. But I can not do anything to protect you. Your mom sometimes berates you, perhaps beats you when she needs. Your senior sister often berates you and even one time during a Skype session I saw she beat your head. Many times I saw scars in diffirent places of your body. You say your senior sister's cat scrabbles you. It s free to do anything to my daughter for everybody. It makes my heart bleeding.

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