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I was married with a Russian woman. The person I had loved most in my life. I loved her very much. We have had a daughter in 2009. My wonderful daughter was born. But I had been able to be with her only till her 1,5 age.

I just had problems with my stepdaughter who she was 9 when I got marry with my ex wife. My step daughter has a difficult character as well as me and it started challenges, problems and conflicts soon. She had been without father and with his very few love and attention since her 4 years old. She is a leo as zodiac sign and requires a kingdom to decree and she had always had such conditions as her mom feels responsibility in her bad fate. But I could not accept to be managed by a 9 years old girl. And I was not mature and experienced enough at parenting to manage the circumstance. An endless struggle and competition started and it leaded problems with my wife. I commented her acts as violations of my rights and tried not to give permission. Now I feel regret for some of my acts very much. Moreover I realise that in some cases I was not right and I did injustices to my step daughter as she did minor mistakes which any girl in her age could do. Poor my wife had to pay the price and took the consequences once more by destroying her life and marriage. She is so unlucky as not to have a good life and destiny till now though she deserves.

So my wife left me and turned back to Russia with the kids in 2011. After 3 years of separation we divorced with her in August 2014. And she declared she found a new lover, an Englishman from London and she got marry with him in February 2016. She says she will bring the kids to England including my daughter. Poor my daughter she has two citizenships to Russia and Turkey. She can not live in one of these her own countries but she has to be as a migrant in England instead. And the worst is that she will has spent almost all her life without her father since her 1,5.

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5/31/14

Correspondance with a friend.

Smatri Oksana.
My wife with her darling. So lovely.
I feel so bad.
It started again chest pain.
I am surrendered. I lost and I am hopeless first time.
It is like to die. And it will cause me to die perhaps.
I love her so much but he stole from me. She says just because of he did not live a problem with her daughters yet.
He enjoys of her, to be together.
I need a drop of water he drinks her for glasses.
Let him fuck me instead, it would not be worse.

 they look good together ...
and look happy ...
lovely couple, they complement each other.
should wish them happiness.
I read that love - this is when you want your loved one to be happy, no matter with whom, with you or with someone else ...
she chooses ...
I'm sorry, I know how it hurts you ...
but that's life ...
Оксана Александрова.

Oksana but what about my happiness. Should not I want and wish my own happiness. Do not I have a right to demand happiness. Why should I ignore my wishes and needs? I can never be happy without her. I love her like crazy. I miss her every moment. How can I be happy while lacking of her. When I burn in fire he enjoys of her.
I dont sadden because of my beloved is happy. I am upset he is not me she is happy with.

I should wish happiness to THEM?! Including him? Oksana if a burglar will steal your car for example, do you wish him a nice driving and joyful time to spend? It is impossible even with a belongings. We are created with an instinct to find and to get the best and most loved. To save it for ourselves. This is the main motivation of all our achievments of our centuries long civilization. To miss, to have, to be together, to see, to fight for our favorites.
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