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I was married with a Russian woman. The person I had loved most in my life. I loved her very much. We have had a daughter in 2009. My wonderful daughter was born. But I had been able to be with her only till her 1,5 age.

I just had problems with my stepdaughter who she was 9 when I got marry with my ex wife. My step daughter has a difficult character as well as me and it started challenges, problems and conflicts soon. She had been without father and with his very few love and attention since her 4 years old. She is a leo as zodiac sign and requires a kingdom to decree and she had always had such conditions as her mom feels responsibility in her bad fate. But I could not accept to be managed by a 9 years old girl. And I was not mature and experienced enough at parenting to manage the circumstance. An endless struggle and competition started and it leaded problems with my wife. I commented her acts as violations of my rights and tried not to give permission. Now I feel regret for some of my acts very much. Moreover I realise that in some cases I was not right and I did injustices to my step daughter as she did minor mistakes which any girl in her age could do. Poor my wife had to pay the price and took the consequences once more by destroying her life and marriage. She is so unlucky as not to have a good life and destiny till now though she deserves.

So my wife left me and turned back to Russia with the kids in 2011. After 3 years of separation we divorced with her in August 2014. And she declared she found a new lover, an Englishman from London and she got marry with him in February 2016. She says she will bring the kids to England including my daughter. Poor my daughter she has two citizenships to Russia and Turkey. She can not live in one of these her own countries but she has to be as a migrant in England instead. And the worst is that she will has spent almost all her life without her father since her 1,5.

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5/25/14

To choose the best of "bads".

What a harsh decision I am faced.

To have to choose the best among all bad options.

It is just the matter of to whom to harm among the people most loved and most important for me.

It is the most terrible decision and I can not avoid no more.

For long time I could postpone and even I had had hopes to be able to avoid from this situation.

For first time my benefits, requirements and necessities, my beloved wife's and daughter's conflict with each other.

What ever I will do it will be very bad for one of us in any case.

My wife says she will divorce from me and moved to England to live with her new English darling. She wants to bring our common 4,5 years old daughter.

I have a perfect daughter. She is shortly wonderful and I am glad of her everything. She loves me very much. And I love her very much. I have an opportunity to take her back from my wife and receive all the parental rights. There is a chance for me to be together at least with my daughter since it is impossible for my wife. But it s bad and rsky for my wife. It may put my wife in danger. How can I risk her?...... How I am unlucky, I am desperate even when I have a solution.

On the other hand oor my daughter how can I ignore her and leave fatherless?

Is not it betray to my daughter?

And do I have to lose always? Is it my destiny to lose in any case? Should I give up one more thing I love very much? Should I violate myself? If I have a chance to be together at least with one of my most loved persons should I waste it?

Ah my darling, what did you do to us?!?!........
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