To make a vicious circle.

I think I made a psychological or sociological invention.

I call my wife much less, I communicate with her much less now. Not because of I dont want but just because of I afraid of her. I know my every movement sinks me more and more like in a moore. I know she does not want to be called by me. I am afraid of to make her angry. I am afraid of to loose even my recent small opportunity to keep contact with my wife and daughter. Shortly I am afraid of to force my chance too much. Just to be able to respecfull, not to be considered disturbing her, to avoid from a new argue, I even dont show my attention and love to her. But perhaps she thinks I really have not loved her, I just ceased to play. Perhaps I am wrong with my guess, she expects from me not to be so careless. How can she know it s not my decision nor desire to be so. She thinks it s natural perhaps. She does not know I can not be myself now while to be under pressure so much with fearing to make a wrong move. Perhaps she considers it s proof of lacking of my love. And if the situation is really so, it causes her love to me to be reduced. So we raise our reactions interactivity due to each other. And this makes everything stronger day by day.

I think the same mechanism works also at the begining of a love. But just in the opposite direction. You take courage from each other to dare to behave closer by positive feedback.

Perhaps it s just the accelerating mechanism of love affairs at the begining and at the end I discovered now. Or perhaps it s already know by psychologists.