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I was married with a Russian woman. The person I had loved most in my life. I loved her very much. We have had a daughter in 2009. My wonderful daughter was born. But I had been able to be with her only till her 1,5 age.

I just had problems with my stepdaughter who she was 9 when I got marry with my ex wife. My step daughter has a difficult character as well as me and it started challenges, problems and conflicts soon. She had been without father and with his very few love and attention since her 4 years old. She is a leo as zodiac sign and requires a kingdom to decree and she had always had such conditions as her mom feels responsibility in her bad fate. But I could not accept to be managed by a 9 years old girl. And I was not mature and experienced enough at parenting to manage the circumstance. An endless struggle and competition started and it leaded problems with my wife. I commented her acts as violations of my rights and tried not to give permission. Now I feel regret for some of my acts very much. Moreover I realise that in some cases I was not right and I did injustices to my step daughter as she did minor mistakes which any girl in her age could do. Poor my wife had to pay the price and took the consequences once more by destroying her life and marriage. She is so unlucky as not to have a good life and destiny till now though she deserves.

So my wife left me and turned back to Russia with the kids in 2011. After 3 years of separation we divorced with her in August 2014. And she declared she found a new lover, an Englishman from London and she got marry with him in February 2016. She says she will bring the kids to England including my daughter. Poor my daughter she has two citizenships to Russia and Turkey. She can not live in one of these her own countries but she has to be as a migrant in England instead. And the worst is that she will has spent almost all her life without her father since her 1,5.

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7/14/12

To pass from medical tests.

For last one week I had to engage with health problems. I had to visit hospitals many times. I have had high blood pressure problem for almost 10 years and nowadays it s it's bad period again. They fixed a specific device on me named holter to monitor the blood pressure for 24 hours. It checks automatically in every half an hour and keeps the values in memory to be transfered into computer to process with a specific software later. You should see me like a suicide bomber with cables and thin tubes on my body. Fortunatelly the report about it was not so bad and doctors told it would be enough to keep far away from salt and stress which impossible for me a life without both at least for now. And just several days before I visited an other doctor for my kidneys this time. I had an operation with my left kidney 2 years ago and for last 6 months I started to feel pain sometime. They made urine test and ultrasoundgraphic imaging and could not find a serious problem but instead prostate grooving problem. And now there is the next treatment in order. Dentist. the most nervous one.

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